Springtime depression
22 - Female - Middle Earth
This is just a place for me to vent and collect memories, good and bad.
[[Trigger Warning - I sometimes post about self harm and other triggering stuff]]. If you ever need to talk I'm here. I'd love to meet other people on their journeys and hear their stories.
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soru-evans:

edwad:

long distance relationships aren’t so bad if ur dick is long enough 2 reach ur girl hahaha swag

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im-going-to-self-destruct:

alongside-death:

mybeautifulrepublic:

I took a 7 week coast to coast road trip after being laid off from Boeing. I didn’t have a camper but realized that being able to pull off the road at a rest or truck stop was the way to go to make the trip affordable. With a few sheets of 1/2” plywood and misc. hardware this is what I came up with. The effort was well worth the time and materials. 

Well this is everything I could ever possibly want.

Greatest ever??

This is the most fantastic thing I have ever seen. I must do this before I die. I WILL do this before I die.

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(Source: gloriousbacon)

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One of the downsides of being an atheist is losing your religious friends or having them drift away.

I went to the supermarket today and saw an old friend who used to be a good friend of mine. She became really religious  after high school and it seemed like we didn’t have anything in common anymore because she said it was not good in her religion to go to the movies or make art (stuff we bonded over in high school).

She sort of became preachy but I didn’t mind it. The thing is, I used to identify as Muslim (the same religion as her) but I decided to no longer identify as that since I always felt deep down inside I was an atheist. I think she found out through one of our friends or just caught on and she just drifted away even further even though I still wanted to be friends with her. I never hated on Islam or Muslims or religion or preached like those angry atheists do (heck my own family is Muslim) ..but still I don’t think she was too keen on hanging out with me anymore. It’s always been kind of awkward because of that. Specially if we run into each other.

Anyway, I was at the supermarket today and I saw her so I said Hi to her and her mum and we got talking and I was freaking out because I went specifically to the supermarket to buy some alcohol (I just wanted to have a few quiet drinks alone at home in my room -.-). And I was freaking out at the check out that she’d see me buying it or getting my ID checked and hate me.

I know that atheists give religious people a lot of shit ..but I wish that religious people wouldn’t always be so judgmental. Like, I can’t even tell my family I an Atheist or they’ll disown me or hate me forever. Real talk.

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recoveryisbeautiful:

Recovery is not re-living by crossroadsme on Flickr.

He has enough to go to a concert but not enough to get phone credit.

We live in different countries so I think the fact that you need credit to txt your girlfriend is kind of important..

Sometimes I don’t want to be with you anymore. I want to change who I am, be who I want to be and find someone who will be there for me more than you are.

This long distance relationship is bad for my mental health because when you can’t be there for me when I need you I just resort to cutting myself.

And right now all of this is just hurting me and I want to get drunk.

The part the pisses me of the most is that you can’t even see how much you’re hurting me and it’s easy to say i’m ‘over reacting’ because I have bpd so that to you automatically means everything is my problem.

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i just feel like pushing everyone away so i can destroy myself without interuption and burdening people

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